It Still Hurts

There are things that take me back. Take me to when the hurt was raw, the tears were fresh. Things that make me miss my first child so, so much.

Oh how I miss him. I heard this song while playing my iTunes on random today, and the memories flooded my mind of what is now almost 2 years ago. How has it been almost 2 years? What would he have been like now?

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Luke is 5 months old today. I wouldn’t trade my sweet Luke for a second. But it doesn’t and won’t ever take away the pain of not having William here.

He would’ve been 14 months old now.

Having Luke here and falling more and more in love with him just makes me realize how much I’m missing with William, and how I love him even more now, if that’s possible. Is it possible?

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3 thoughts on “It Still Hurts

  1. Yes. Holding your rainbow baby gives you glimpses of what might have been. It’s been six years and nearly two years since my losses and there are still those sharp “what if?” moments. Thinking of you.

  2. Right when our second was born, I was missing our firstborn so incredibly much. For me, it’s gotten a bit easier as time goes on as I’m consumed with her but we still miss our little guy. Sending you love!

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